self-sabotage

I'm sitting here, thinking of the various ways I self-sabotage myself...one which, tomorrow, shall become very real.
I am starting a course to further myself in my employment, and I've worried about how hard it will be, the hours (8:30am?!?), and if I'm too stoopid to learn or retain new tricks. I am sure of one thing only - that I can talk to customers. The rest of it...well, I just don't know. But the other night I sat quietly with myself and listened to my inner babble regarding this matter, where I thought I'd fail, or find myself struggling...yet I'd already laid out a plan to help myself learn. Its like I'm setting myself up to fail and I've not started yet, and so I've reasoned that the travel will be hard. I don't know if I'll GET IT by the time I need to, which is tomorrow morning.

Today I am up at 8, and am going to have breakfast soon, and get out the door, finish my shopping (the list is still only partly finished), and then come back here and be CREATIVE.

I bought more podge, and intend to finish the first book - its almost done. I am going to pop into a dollar store and see what they have there, cheap, for podging action. The morning seems quite exciting today...I only wish there were someone to go to brunch with.

xoxo
lili