Today, the wreckage

I get paid today. I have things to do...get a money order, send a package, get gas/smokes, get some groceries. Go to work. I don't have the energy for any of it.

I feel like I've been ruined somehow.

My sleep was broken and my belly is rotten and I am supposed to meet the folks for lunch and I am just exhausted. I just tried to call mom but they've left already. They likely don't have their cell phone on, I don't know if I have the number even.

I need some more of what I had last night...the two candles burning, a good quick cry, cats coming by. Silence. No pressures. I'm getting dressed in warm clothing and pondering what else there is today besides what is absolutely necessary that I get done.

xoxo
lili