all those things they said to me today *RANT*

I'm so tired.

I've got nothing done.

I'm feeling my energy depleting.

I don't have the energy to deal.

And I'm angry.

I feel like everyone wants a piece or two of me and I don't have it to give...today, fer instance...when I wanted to just hang out, maybe burn a few cd's - play, in other words, there were "demands" of sorts - phone calls, IM's, work, visits promised, and once home, serenity broken by returning phone calls and receiving more. I just want to sit quietly for a day, without demands of any kind. Perhaps not turn the computer on, not answer the phone. I just need ME time and I realize that others have filled the void for me and that it would be nice to return the favor but lordy, everybody at once...

I'm torn by feelings of loyalty and the desire to be completely selfish. I need a backrub and a hug, I need some kind of release.

I don't understand how some people can run and run all day and still have time to take the calls, take the truths that others lay on them. I am having troubles with running a short distance in the day and then taking the calls and the truths. Somehow, I don't know if I was put together to take the truths.

I'm sitting at this freakin computer when I really wish to be anywhere else...and so I'll go and try to create the ambience that I need to refuel.

xoxo

lili